So one minute I'm sort of a Christian and the next minute the whole idea of a male god as the exclusive spokesdude for the numinous seemed silly and somewhat offensive. I was hanging out with some old Irish guys and sitting in on the Catholic mass and generally being kind of Xtian and monotheistic and it suddenly dawned on me that the austere old god dude and the baby raping culture were closely connected and the whole thing seemed dismal when obviously, I mean, obviously, the god business was meant to be fun and it is a good thing to be in a body and not want to run around hurting people.
Damn, I mean, I didn't think there was anything harmful in the old mystic paradigm but the new epiphany just showed up fully formed and perfectly trustworthy.
Quite suddenly, God became a fun sort of dudess.
I'm sorry to disappoint my "rational" pals but I still ain't no atheist.
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Glad you had your epiphany. Pleased to see you used one of my photos in your blog. At least I think it's one of my photos. Maybe someone else had the same idea.
Oops, I forgot to include that Alice. It is indeed one of your pictures.
Hell, I wasn't a bad guy when I was following all of those far left wing Christians and I still love a lot of them.
oh yeah, well...
Nazz, I didn't think this would speak to you. You'll just have to believe that my inner life is real to me. You know when your mind is in crawling chaos mode and you're tormented with irrational nightmares of fear and self loathing? I believe you've mentioned them.
Sometimes my mind is in hyper self aware mode and I'm blessed with irrational ecstasies of love and pleasure that seem to transcend day to day reality.
It ain't weird or nothin'. I mean, I can still drive a car when it happens. I just get things and life seems like a pretty good deal.
Jon,
Whatever gets you through the night, alright. Myself, being an atheist since I was 13, I confess to having a hard time understanding the need to believe in God. However, if folks want to do that and it helps them deal with their existence, beauty.
wv: cable
gotta love that :)
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